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i'm biking by your house at 3am
i told myself i wouldn't, but i am
i know i should be trying to be a man
but i'm too busy trying to think of the saddest thing i can

like, it's probably warm in there
clean pillows and your freshly shampooed hair

goddamn it's been an awful year
i can't believe that i'm still here
holy shit, i really thought i would die
and i've fucked up every thing i've tried

and you're probably warm in there
with your new person, and their new hands in your hair

i'm lying in the grass at 3am
i don't know what i'm waiting for or where i am
i've no direction, i have no plan
but i can't think of a single reason that i should stand

so i'm watching these clouds blow by the moon
and i'm trying, or i'm trying not, to think of you

i can't give up on loving you
but that's exactly what you want me to do
i wanna be the one who's loving you
but you don't want me and there's nothing i can do

goddamn this is an awful year
i can't believe that i'm still here
and holy shit, i really wanted to die
but i've fucked up every time i've tried

and you're probably warm in there
with your new person in the bed we used to share

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from Live At Laughing Horse, released September 1, 2013

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The Sarcastic Dharma Society Portland, Oregon

Mat Vuksinich has been making music under the name The Sarcastic Dharma Society, both by himself and with the help of others, since 2003. They can be found writing, recording, and regularly performing in the rainy city of Portland, Oregon.

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