The Sarcastic Dharma Society
Live at Laughing Horse
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    01. Empathy

    If it's two years since I've seen you, I apologize for leaving
    for not grieving, disappointing you, with reason
    but I swear I did the best with what I had

    If you call me with a cell phone from a bridge when you are seething
    desperation in your breathing, open wounds, unfinished feelings

    is it my fault, what you have done?
    If I've moved on, have I done wrong?
    If you forgive me, will you leave me alone?

    You know I don't expect an understanding
    resolute in your meandering, speaking up to hear yourself
    but don't you guilt my heart with your heartache
    You know even on a great day I can hardly break free from the blankets that shelter me.

    And I know you are sad
    the way we are all sad
    I know that you are lost
    and that you think I am your home
    but I cannot take care of myself
    What would ever make you believe I could care for somebody else?

    Is it my fault, what you have done?
    If I've moved on, have I done wrong?
    If you forgive me, will you leave me alone?

    02. 3am

    I'm biking by your house at 3am
    I told myself I wouldn't, but I am
    I know I should be trying to be a man
    but I'm too busy trying to think of the saddest thing I can

    Like, It's probably warm in there
    Clean pillows and your freshly shampooed hair

    Goddamn it's been an awful year
    I can't believe that I'm still here
    Holy shit, I really thought I would die
    And I've fucked up every thing I've tried

    And you're probably warm in there
    With your new person, and their new hands in your hair

    I'm lying in the grass at 3am
    I don't know what I'm waiting for or where I am
    I've no direction, I have no plan
    but I can't think of a single reason that I should stand

    So I'm watching these clouds blow by the moon
    and I'm trying, or I'm trying not, to think of you

    I can't give up on loving you
    but that's exactly what you want me to do
    I wanna be the one who's loving you
    but you don't want me and there's nothing I can do

    Goddamn this is an awful year
    I can't believe that I'm still here
    And holy shit, I really wanted to die
    But I've fucked up every time I've tried

    And you're probably warm in there
    With your new person in the bed we used to share

    03. Never

    I told you that I would never leave
    and what I told you, I believed

    Who knew you could be wrong
    about your own heart?
    How was I to know you weren't the whole
    but just a small part?

    I am in awe of how hard I must fight
    to hold on to a feeling for more than a night

    04. Surrender To You

    Hold back
    I can't say what I wanna say
    and I know that
    but I rehearse it anyway
    Every day, as I wake, when I shower, when I shave
    I rewrite, I rephrase, I rethink what I'd say

    And what I'd say is:

    "I know you.
    You don't believe in love.
    But I'll show you.
    This isn't what you're thinking of.
    This is something new.
    And lord knows I was skeptical, too.

    My head tells me this can't be true.
    It's a lustful impulse gone askew.
    But my heart's been fighting hard for you,
    and I can see its point of view.
    But with all the feelings I've been through,
    there's nothing honest I can do,

    but surrender to you.

    And then you do whatever feels right to you.
    Kiss my face and let me comfort you.
    Or slap it hard and bruise me black and blue.
    Either way I give this self to you.
    And I'm sorry if you didn't want me to,
    but I surrender to you."

    05. This Fool

    There is no way out of this town
    I've followed every train track and road that I've found
    and they circle round and round
    I'm trapped in this body
    Sad, captive, and sorry
    I want to get out and I wanna find the end
    and sever my ties to the people I've been
    and live a righteous life
    or give a selfless love
    or do whatever a good person does
    to end up in heaven above

    You put your faith into this fool
    Gave him a thousand second chances to start new
    But every time he comes back
    saying he would never do that
    with a thousand selfish reasons
    for the thousand selfish ways
    I will hurt you

    You know that people can't be trusted to be good
    Why would you lie and say that you believed they could?

    So you know that I could be the guy
    who loves you every day until you die
    but I am probably just somebody who will make you cry
    It's more than likely that I might be just a waste of time

    My bones are scarred from things that I've done wrong
    And you will learn to hate my face in time
    And everything that we will ever do
    is everything that we have ever done
    And everything that I will ever say
    I'll say with this song:
    That, what I wanted for you and me
    and what happened to you and me
    are two very different things
    And that difference is the reason every singer sings

    And where does that leave me?
    Hoping no one will ever see
    how worthless I am
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    01. The Light

    tonight i can see all the stars
    that are dying or dead, or living well fed
    i feel the light from the things that they've said
    as i walk the blocks to where i know you'll be
    and i kick the rocks and look up at the trees
    wondering, "will you remember me?"

    02. The Giving Tree

    what happened to me didn't happen very long
    less than a moment and something else had begun
    and people aren't the same for very long
    and when i hear you've got a new favorite song

    i fall upon my temporary knees
    and i scream "please please please,"
    that, like the giving tree
    i need to be useful to be happy

    i wanna give away my love.
    i wanna give away my love.

    most of what i have i don't deserve
    and the parts that i do aren't very good
    and if i gave this heart another go
    sold this self to someone i hardly know

    i fall upon my temporary knees
    and i scream "please please please,"
    that, like the giving tree
    i need to be useful to be happy

    i wanna give away my love.
    i wanna give away my love.

    what do i believe? what do i think i need?
    what do i believe? what do i think i need?

    03. My War

    like at the end of a war
    we both walk away
    go back to our lives
    pretend we're the same

    and you said, "go home.
    no more war in my heart."
    and left for wherever you are
    by the dawn's early light

    but that was our home
    at the center of that mad mad fight
    now i see i am alone
    by the dawn's early light
    an aimless and endless refrain
    by the dawn's early light
    by the dawn's early light

    04. Our Lives

    and i crawl into bed when i'm not even tired
    pretend it's five hours from now and you're calling to say
    that you're on your way

    and i will be here when you walk through the door
    and i will come running from out from wherever i'm hiding to say,
    "i know that you've had a long day,
    but these are our lives,
    and these are our good times,
    and i love my life--can't believe that it's mine.
    hold my hand, and feel my body,
    forget that i'm sorry, just know that i'm warm.

    05. Moving On

    your oh so tired eyes falling asleep on me
    the movie on pause while i wait when you have to go pee
    will i forget these things and be happy?
    i should have known something that great would eventually leave

    telling you what you said in your sleep
    listening to your stuffy nose breathe
    the way you burnt yourself on every cup of tea
    the moments apart when i knew you were thinking of me
    will i forget these things and be happy?
    i guess i knew something that great would eventually leave

    06. Molly

    i gave away everything that i owned
    all the few posessions and ambitions that i once that were my own
    because i was confronted by the truth about our lives
    that we are here to love each other
    while we have the time

    don't wait, hold my hand
    i give thanks for whatever i have

    and i became a flower because of you
    because of you i give my fragrance
    i learn to walk
    i reach you
    i learn to talk
    i write my song
    and it goes
    "oh, how i love you. oh, how i have loved you."
    when i met you, when i kissed you
    when i followed and when i led
    through the forest, and the desert
    and the softness of our bed
    when we argued, when we forgave
    called each other the same name
    as we grew up, when you gave up
    when you left me, still i sang, that,
    "oh, how i love you. oh, how i have loved you"
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  • thesarcasticdharmasociety:

thickwittedskywatcher:

thickwittedskywatcher:

meowmeowmacaroni:

thesarcasticdharmasociety:

hey, i’m playing 2 free shows in Portland, OR this week, if you’re around, come to both! (or just one.) they will be lots of fun i promise:
Thursday, June 27th @ My House (all ages)http://www.facebook.com/events/186203738207248     with Iji and Mandaryn Dynasty
Tuesday, July 2nd @ Alhambra Theater (21+)http://www.facebook.com/events/515402645181642     with The Ocean Floor and The Cabin Project

le sigh

doin it. just gotta get a ride up there. lel

totally on my way to the thing. waiting outside to be fashionably late and also cuz i want to listen to BBNG

last night was amazing, i had all of the fun and both Iji and Mandaryn Dynasty blew my mind. 
if you missed it, no worries, you can come on tuesday! with The Ocean Floor!
Tuesday, July 2nd @ Alhambra Theater (21+)http://www.facebook.com/events/515402645181642     with The Ocean Floor and The Cabin Project


this is tonight! see you there, portland peoples.
-mat

    thesarcasticdharmasociety:

    thickwittedskywatcher:

    thickwittedskywatcher:

    meowmeowmacaroni:

    thesarcasticdharmasociety:

    hey, i’m playing 2 free shows in Portland, OR this week, if you’re around, come to both! (or just one.) they will be lots of fun i promise:

    le sigh

    doin it. just gotta get a ride up there. lel

    totally on my way to the thing. waiting outside to be fashionably late and also cuz i want to listen to BBNG

    last night was amazing, i had all of the fun and both Iji and Mandaryn Dynasty blew my mind. 

    if you missed it, no worries, you can come on tuesday! with The Ocean Floor!

    this is tonight! see you there, portland peoples.

    -mat

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  • theoceanfloormusic:

    Hey everyone! We have a a free e.p. coming out soon. It is 6 songs that were played often from 2009 to 2011. This was when we were an “acoustic” four-piece. I had no means to document these songs in the way they were played until Bob Scwenkler kindly offered to record them at Dub Narcotic Studio last summer. This was a dream weekend - feeling the history of K records and our own personal history intertwining. I feel that this music should be released for free because, although I am very proud and pleased with the results, this music comes from another time - one that isn’t coming back. Please enjoy “Somewhere That You’ve Been” now and look for the full e.p. soon at theoceanfloor.bandcamp.com.

    beautiful. i cannot wait to hear the rest of this.

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  • http://www.theoceanfloor.org

    theoceanfloormusic:

    We are so excited to announce our brand new website designed by the very multi-talented Mat Vuksinich. Here you will find  in one place info on shows, our story, videos, and listen to most of our music. As it is set up through Tumblr as well, we will be blogging regularly from it and hope you’ll subscribe to find out what we’re up to! Thanks again - Mat!

    hey, i built a website for one of my most favorite bands, The Ocean Floor. they just released this AMAZING record, called “Falling Star Castle”.

    go listen to it! and also go follow their new tumblr: http://theoceanfloor.org

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    a few weeks ago i got to play a show with one of my very most favorite bands ever, Hop Along, while they were on tour from Philadelphia. it was probably the best show (best anything?) i’ve ever been a part of. Lane Barrington played drums with me on short notice and with short rehearsal (he is the best dude) and Duck. Little Brother, Duck! also played and were great—all the jammerz. it was a pardee. my friend kevin was kind enough (in exchange for a rather large beer) to tape my set, although he was tragically unable to tape the other bands. i did some work trying to clean up the audio a little bit, but it’s still pretty janky and dirty and taped on a field recorder from a corner of the room. anyway, here are my last three songs from the show: “Surrender To You”, “3am”, and “This Fool”.

    i’ve been putting off posting about this night because i don’t really feel like i have the words to properly relay how important it was to me or how amazing it was, but whatever, it was a thing that happened and i’m all about it.

    this is a picture taken by their drummer (and one of the all around best dudes i know) Mark while they were playing. people were scared the floor of the house was gonna collapse from the weight of everyone dancing around. this did not happen. i’m glad this did not happen, though i a) think that would have been awesome in a “fuck yeah punk rock” kind of way, and b) don’t think it’s possible for that to have happened anyway.

    i’m slightly out of frame to the right, standing a foot away from his sister Frances, trying not to sing along so loudly to her songs that i distract her, but still incapable of not rocking the fuck out, and having just about the best time i’ve ever had doing anything. the mix was perfect from where i was, could hear every note and every syllable of every word (benefit of running the soundboard) and they were beautiful. they sounded SO good. like, seriously. so much of what i like about music is inside of this band. they’ve been a huge inspiration for me over the last 6 or so years and getting a chance to play with them blew my mind. i was so ridiculously nervous on the day of, and also for the month leading up to the day of, and even though trey and i drove up to seattle the night before to see them play there (which was also amazing) and hang out and we got beers and got silly and crashed their slumber party and stuff, i am sort of unable to not be totally intimidated by these guys.

    their first album, Freshman Year, is filled with my fears and my crys and my hugs and my sighs. it’s textured in all of these moments and friends and rooms and ideas and excitements and it stays directed, always aware of the song that it’s inside of and building up this little world that reminds me of the important parts of the one that i usually live inside of. her voice stays immensely honest, and i’ve ended up in tears over it often.

    this album is on some very short imaginary list of records that have been sort of “contemporaries”, or, really, more aptly “aspirations”, for the music i’ve been trying to make, along with albums like French Quarter's self titled album, Manipulator Alligator's “We Raised Them”, At Night’s “Sing Out To The Sun”, Andrew Jackson Jihad's “Issue Problems”, A John Henry Memorial's “La Bonita Comossion”, Paul Baribeau's “Grand Ledge”, and (totally unrelated to any involvement i may have had with them) Shelby Sifers' first two records. there was a lot of music that made, and continues to make, me want to make music, but during some really important moments, these were people making some seriously beautiful music in their bedrooms and in their basements and on passionate excited adventures that brought them into crazy places like my very own living room or sketch basement. they were real people, who were making the things they wanted to make and making those things themselves, without waiting around for someone to give them a bunch of guidance or money or acceptance or validation or fuck all anything. they just made fucking amazing records with their souls and their heartbreaks and their immense talent and their most vulnerable pieces and some tape recorders and shit. it’s the fucking best thing ever. like, sincere art being made by sincere dudes. who also happen to be really good at it. i know this is just me saying “DIY is really kewl, mang” but getting to watch that happen and getting to experience that process and getting to know those people, both as friends and as songwriters and artists, was (to borrow from shelley duvall’s character in annie hall) simply transplendid. there’s no other word for it. if i could make these records i would be making these records. in a lot of ways i’ve pretty much been trying to do that forever, although probably less specifically and a little less directly derivatively in the last few years—these days i’m too busy trying to rip off the more recent Hop Along records.

    the followup to “Freshman Year”, “Is Something Wrong”, and also “Wretches” (which i think work really well as one record, by the way) was equally, if not more, influential for me. i’ve been fighting with this whole “singer/songwriter” thing for a long time, that is, there’s all of this baggage that goes along with being a boy (or girl) who wants to play a guitar and sing songs about love and death and stuff to people and ask that they focus on the words that you’re saying. a lot of people seem to have this sort of dismissive judgment thing that happens when they see a dude break out the ol’ geetar and get to ramblin’ about his ladyfriends. and about his ramblin’. i mean, i do it too (the dismissive thing, that is, not so much the ramblin’) it seems like every 3rd dude has “this machine kills something" scratched on his guitar and he wants to yell at me about some fucking train car or about some girl they met who likes a book that they like, and i pretty much stop giving a shit a few minutes before i’m made aware of their existence. which is a tad rash on my part, i feel. but it happens! Hop Along has managed to fucking destroy that nonsense (in my head, anyway) and that’s awesome.

    anyway, trying to translate the music that i want to be making into a live setting has been a really rough process that i’m about 1/3 of the way through right now, but they’ve made me feel like it’s totally possible and totally worthwhile. there are other models (david bazan, julie doiron, mirah, etc) but, again, seeing Hop Along, little old Hop Along, do it, is somehow more impactful and exciting and inspiring. and they are keeping that shit up with the newest fuck yeah badass record “Get Disowned”. it’s not, like, magic or anything, i just really appreciate what they’re doing and what i feel like they’re trying to do and it gets me all happy and sad and stoked and emotional. if i ever get this shit together, there are going to be some very clear parallels (at least in my head) between the progression of that band’s sound and the sound of my own band. thanks, Hop Along dudes, you’re fucking rad.

    <3,
    -mat 

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  • tonight, dude is gonna read from his new book, and i&#8217;m gonna play a song for this K Records tribute show at Valentine&#8217;s, with hella friends, including:
Clea Partridge (featuring ex-members of Explode Into Colors)Grey AnneAlan SingleyBen Meyercord (Meyercord, Y La Bamba)The Sarcastic Dharma SocietySanti Elijah Holley (Blind Bartimaeus)Kyle Morton (Typhoon)Maggie Morris (Youth, Genders)Devin Gallagher (Typhoon)Katherine Paul (Forest Park) Jack Lewis (JeffreyLewisBand, The Bundles)Shannon Steele (The Ocean Floor, Typhoon) … and more
krecs:

You’ve probably heard about Mark Baumgarten’s new book Love Rock Revolution: K Records and the Rise of Independent Music. It’s a nifty summer read about all things K and it comes with a great music download, too! 
This weekend, Baumgarten will be doing a series of readings all around the Pacific Northwest. The first date is this evening at Powell’s, and will be followed by a K tribute show at Valentine’s in Portland.
Tomorrow night, Baumgarten will be reading at the Henry Art Gallery in Seattle for the opening of The Record: Contemporary Art and Vinyl. This art show/book reading extravaganza will be accompanied by performances by Slashed Tires and The Hive Dwellers! Tickets for that event are still on sale for just $10, so if you’re in Seattle you should definitely go dig the scene!
Finally, Baumgarten is reading at the Anacortes Unknown Music Series this weekend (the 14th &amp; 15th) and will also be signing copies of the book, which you can pick up at the Small Press Book Fair if you don’t have one already!
Go forth and read, friends!

    tonight, dude is gonna read from his new book, and i’m gonna play a song for this K Records tribute show at Valentine’s, with hella friends, including:

    Clea Partridge (featuring ex-members of Explode Into Colors)
    Grey Anne
    Alan Singley
    Ben Meyercord (Meyercord, Y La Bamba)
    The Sarcastic Dharma Society
    Santi Elijah Holley (Blind Bartimaeus)
    Kyle Morton (Typhoon)
    Maggie Morris (Youth, Genders)
    Devin Gallagher (Typhoon)
    Katherine Paul (Forest Park
    Jack Lewis (JeffreyLewisBand, The Bundles)
    Shannon Steele (The Ocean Floor, Typhoon) 
    … and more

    krecs:

    You’ve probably heard about Mark Baumgarten’s new book Love Rock Revolution: K Records and the Rise of Independent Music. It’s a nifty summer read about all things K and it comes with a great music download, too! 

    This weekend, Baumgarten will be doing a series of readings all around the Pacific Northwest. The first date is this evening at Powell’s, and will be followed by a K tribute show at Valentine’s in Portland.

    Tomorrow night, Baumgarten will be reading at the Henry Art Gallery in Seattle for the opening of The Record: Contemporary Art and Vinyl. This art show/book reading extravaganza will be accompanied by performances by Slashed Tires and The Hive Dwellers! Tickets for that event are still on sale for just $10, so if you’re in Seattle you should definitely go dig the scene!

    Finally, Baumgarten is reading at the Anacortes Unknown Music Series this weekend (the 14th & 15th) and will also be signing copies of the book, which you can pick up at the Small Press Book Fair if you don’t have one already!

    Go forth and read, friends!

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  • this is the first of a bunch of videos from a show i played at last month to celebrate my friend Maya's birthday (good friends Zoogirl and Your Rival also played).

    there’s a youtube playlist with all of my songs from the show: here.

    i did a similar thing at her party last year, most of the same songs, so i wanted to try to do something a little different, little special, and was able to convince one of my most favorite people/musicians, the incredible Lane Barrington, who fronts the fucking incredible as shit in every way band The Ocean Floor, to do a little drumming with me for the night. we got together a couple of times that week to rehearse and work out the songs, and i had way way too much fun rocking out with him in Rocco's very small, very loud basement, drinking quite a bit of wine, eating quite a few veggie bagel burgers, and getting my mind quite a bit blown in a sea of sweaty bodies by the awesomeness that was Zoogirl's set.

    mp3s of my set are: here.

    much love,
    -mat

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  • new song from The Ocean Floor, finally showing off a piece of the new sound that they’ve been secretly developing. i like it. i like it lots. so very excited to hear the new record, see the new shows. these guys seem to do good things all of the time. no secret, i have the hugest crush on this band, and on each of its individual members.

    much love,
    -mat

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