“I have lost all of the love I have been given, and so I’m more frightened than happy that you have arrived. Don’t take this the wrong way, but I want you to go away, ‘cuz I’ve never felt this way, but that’s what I always say. And just like a high school play, our words are so trite and lame, and though there is love on this page, our scene ends with loss and pain. You will not love my forever and I will not deserve that love ever. You know I ‘wanna try, but I know it isn’t wise, and you will regret me, so please just forget me.
Or, if you want, you can stay. And, if you want, we can get married. But, if you want to, then say, because I need to be carried. And I will mess up, like I always mess up, and you will regret me, so please just forget me. But, if you stay, I won’t go, and I’ll forget what I know of our hearts and our souls, how they change and we grow, and I’ll give my life to the love in my life, and I truly love you, but, truly, love will disappoint you.
I know that all things must pass, but I don’t think I care what happens last. I want you now. I want you. Now. Hold me while I’m here—a life in moments, and not years. I’ll hold you while you’re near—we won’t have long to love, I fear.”